Me, Myself and I

Another year of blessing had come our way. 2008 is already a closed book of the past and now 2009 is a new book with new chapters will be written. But before that, let me reminisce the times I spent last 2008.

My 2008 Happenings. My 2008 had been full of blessings and struggles. Hmmmm.. As I begin writing this part, I’d begun to remember each one of them. Hehehehe..

In January, it’s the 1^st death anniversary of my father. Well, that 1^st anniversary, the times we spent with our father had once again remembered. We always missed him and I always got to a teary-eyed emotion every time I hear his name or someone would tell story about him. Haaaaaaaay.. I missed my father so much.. :’(

In February, well.. the Valentine month. It’s not a usual valentine month for me this year. Hehehe..Why? Well.. of course, I got to spend my valentine with my mahal.. No details for this. Sorry.

In March, wow! My birthday month.. This one is a special month for me. It’s because every time this month comes, I always have the feeling of urgency – urgency to achieving my goals because in this month I always felt old. Hehehe.. Well, what is nice about my birthday was the surprise of my mahal gave me, a bouquet of 12 red roses (although he knows I love white roses.) and a book which I haven’t read until now. Oooopps, sorry.. But it’s a great book of success and inspirational stories. I’d be reading it though this month for I might get another one on March. hehehe..

In April and May, whoosh! These are struggle months for me. It’s because I wrote my thesis and finished them in these months. Grrrraaaaaaaaaabbeee.. I could not believe that I actually made it. Thank God!

In June, our anniversary month. We had our 2^nd year anniversary. We spent the whole day together. We went to ocean park and enjoyed the fish in the aquariums. We also ate lunch and dinner together as we talked about our plans and life in the future. That one is the greatest part ever. He’s really a blessing for me.This is a month for celebration not only of our anniversary but also for finishing my MS thesis successfully and passed the oral defense. Well.. what can I say? God has been so generous to me. Thank you Lord! I could not ask for more.

In July and August.. hmmmmm.. I implemented my new strategies of thesis writing in our college. Well, all thought to be the very hard thesis writing in TIP. What can I do? I just want my students to learn something before they leave TIP.

In September, end of the first semester months, struggle months for me. issues were raised and shortcomings for my role were realized. Whoooo! And I passed them all. Thank you Lord!!!

In October, Hmmmmmm.. I love this month.. It had given me the desire to be better with my role as a researcher and had inspired me to do more research for our college. I begun to know the strategies and planned out the things that I should do in order for me to one by one achieve them. Though this realization is still a struggle for me, but it’ll always be a month where part of me had changed. This month is also a birthday month for my mahal and my turn to surprise him. Early in the morning, I went to the supermarket and bought my ingredients for the surprise. Luckily I got the nerve to bring them all to his house and cooked food for his family on his birthday. I’m so happy because he is so happy. I thought it was also my birthday. I cooked spaghetti, mechado, fried chicken, buttered mixed veggies and for dessert? buko pandan.Yummy!!!

In November, this month is one of my favorite months this year. You know why? Hehehe.. Salary was increased!!!! Increased to 210% Yehey!!! that’s a big leap. The reason why I don’t want to go abroad anymore.. hehehe.. This is also my Business Month. I started my food cart business. Not too bad for a young entrepreneur like me. Blessing blessing blessing..

In December, party month.. First party? Our MSIT graduation, whoooooo!!!! That one is something that should be remembered forever. The hooding ceremony was the best part and I will not forget that.. In this month has many parties like Mamita’s wedding, Christmas party, our family bonding in bataan, Ogie’s concert and too many to mention gatherings. These are worth the fun, time and money to spend.

My 2009. This year is a new opportunity for me to achieve more according to my plans and goals. I have written a one page plan for this year and hopefully I can get a perfect mark of targets this time. Last year I got 3 out of 5 not bad though. But this year I am aiming for a perfect mark. Wish me luck!!!

2008 is an abundant year for me. Too much blessings were given and too much lessons were learned. God had provided me with the confidence to accept all of these and the courage to face these. I could not thank Him enough for all of these. As I write this blog, I could not resist on writing everything He had given. This space on my blog is not enough to say how grateful I am for Him to consider me as His daughter and for Him to consider me to pour out these blessings that I had. Thank you Lord!

A fail to plan is a plan to fail. 2009 is a working out year for me. Through the goals I set and the plans I want to achieve, every month is a busy month for me. Hmmmm. New trials, new achievements, new ventures and new life is now ahead.

Goodbye 2008 and Hello 2009!!! and.. This is my life.

I missed writing a blog. So, I’m writing one today but before I start writing I just want to say this: Please don’t copy my blogs. It’s just so sad that somebody told me that one or two of my blogs here were being copied by others. Well, just want to say, all blogs written in here are all original. You will not see it in other sites or other blogs. All I wrote here were originally made by me. I wrote blogs to express my emotions, my opinions and latest happenings in my life. Everything I write here are all precious to me and it breaks my heart if somebody would only copy it for whatever purpose or intentions it serves them.

So please, for my readers, I am asking a favor not to copy my blogs. You can read it as many times as you like but please please please do not copy it. Thank you.

But I thank you all for giving your time reading my blogs. Thank you all.

There are too many meanings of love. Some of it may come from nobles, writers, movies and some may only come from ordinary people who had felt it and had experienced it.

It is so awkward writing this blog.. hehehe.. Coz some may think of it as so corny and so boring wherein almost everybody had known this after all. Well, who cares. This is my blog anyways.. hehehe.. Well, let’s start..

Love is an in-depth feeling for someone. Some people describes love as something you felt deep within for the other person. It is not only felt to the opposite sex but mainly to those people whom you care so much such as your parents,your siblings, your friends and others.

Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired. This feeling can be used both in good and in bad way. This can result you to a good deed of giving an unconditional love to the other person whom you care for without any expectation of loving you back. At the same time, this feeling can also destroy you. It is because you desire to be noticed and to be loved by the person whom you loved so much but don’t return it back. In any way, you felt worthless, unloved and disappointed knowing the truth of not being loved back and this results to destroy you. Desire can ultimately destroy the person if that same person doesn’t know the true meaning of love. But hey, love is..

Love is a sacrifice. Why would you care of not being loved back afterall, when you knew in the first place that loving a person takes you of too much sacrifices. Sacrifices in taking the risk of being hurt out of love. Sacrifices of caring more for that person than for yourself. Sacrifices for everything, just for the benefit of the other person to be happy with you.. With or without any expectation of returning it back.

Love is blind. The very famous meaning of love. Why is it blind? hmmm.. some corny joke would end up saying that the person in love is blind.. But.. Yes, it is true that love is blind. Why? It is because the person who had felt it can never look for defects, faults and imperfections towards the other but only sees what is good, beautiful and pleasing. It is because the imperfections were also being loved and being justified to turn out into a very loving person, showcasing the meaning of true love. I remembered the cartoon movie Shrek. That one is a best example of love is blind.. They are stinky and ugly but they love themselves as who they are and what they are: an ogre.. hehehe.. mmm.. Although, this meaning is corny but hey I loved it.

Love is everything. A person may felt happy, felt sad, felt worthless, felt complete, felt grateful, felt disappointed, felt beautiful, felt nothing.. love is everything. Everything in life succumbs to the true meaning of love. You can not be happy without loving the feeling of sadness first. You can not be promoted in your position in a company without loving your job first. You can not be complete without loving what is given to you first. You can not be loved by anybody without loving yourself first. It is because everything in life can not be overcome and can not be done without love. That’s powerful love is..

Love is, above all else, a gift of oneself. Wow! and Wow!!! This is truly a drop of a jaw meaning.. hehehe.. Yes.. It is true.. Once you had felt love you are not only offering the feeling you have within but you are also offering yourself to that person. It is because it goes with the package. You can not tell you are in love unless you give yourself wholeheartedly to the person. It is not how many gifts you can give. It is not how much money you spent for every dates. It is not how big your house. It is not how extravagant your wedding be. It is not how big your engagement diamond you can offer. But it is how you can give your whole self to the person for it to be called love. And if that someone is willing to do that for you. Hey! Grab him so tight and never ever let that person off your sight.. hehehehe.. And that is the most precious thing.. Giving yourself up for the person you love.

Hmmmmmmmm… Too much meaning of what love is from the past to present generations where love is defined endlessly. And until now, love is still defined by everybody according to how they had known it and had felt it. Through those meanings, an individual can understand it better as a learning endeavour once he had felt love. But it can not completely helped him because the true meaning of love is not read from books, seen on movies and quoted by a famous author. It is defined unselfishly by God for us to determine what true love is..

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

                                                              1 Corinthians 13:4-7

And this is how love is supposed to be.. Mmmmm.. why am I making this blog? Well.. the truth is.. God had showed me how to truly love a person. This verse had been my guiding light with my relationship right now. And I am so happy that He had blessed me.

Happy 2nd Anniversary. and with His guidance, we’ll have more anniversaries to come. Iloveu and I know you know that..

And this is my life..

I’m just too overwhelmed right now of the achievement and the expectations that were all given to me.. It’s just that at one point , I was thinking of how things came into its places.. My dreams, my goals, my plans.. and right now my priorities.. I could have not made it this far without thinking of my dreams and grasping every opportunity that comes my way to further achieve every goal I set. And right now.. a new venture and a new task is given to me and is expected for me to perform..

 My position as an ICT Project/Research Coordinator of our college needs full potential in terms of being an IT professional and researcher as well.. As I am thinking of how my role to the organization be, I somehow got to fear the idea of being excellent. I mostly fear of the possibility of failing and disappointing the expectations they had of me. But also with this, it had challenged me to become excellent.. To be excellent in a way that I know, something will be learned and something will be achieved. and to stop being a mediocre but to keep on learning and learning.. And this means that, getting the degree doesn’t stops there.. The more you are educated, the more you are given with privileges of achieving BIG.. and this is how life is supposed to be.. MAKING THINGS TO HAPPEN..

With all the achievements and the opportunities given to me, I’d like to thank my family, my mentors, and my friends.. For always being there to support me and ready to give me advices when I needed one.. They had been my guiding light for me to aspire and to be an achiever of excellence.. Thank you all so so so much..

I also want to thank you, Lord.. My God, and my Saviour for giving me abundant blessings.. You had completely showered me with too much blessings more than what I had expected.. I bring back all the glory to you.. TO GOD BE THE GLORY..

This is not a usual blog where you can learn from.. this is only an expression of the feelings that I am feeling right now.. I’m just too overwhelmed and too happy.. and this is (for real) my life..

My new shoutout posted in my friendster profile came from John Maxwell, one of my favorite authors. He is a very known author of his books about Leadership. One of his book entitled "Winning with people" is in our bookshelf bought by my late father. And I’ve been reading it this summer. (Kahit na nagthethesis pa. hehehehe.. Kpag sa byahe kasi nakatungaga lang ako kya basa basa muna.. Eh almost one hour ang byahe ko..)

One simple phrase got me: "Hurting people hurt people and easily hurt by them." A simple phrase which says it all.

In the book, Maxwell discussed about the Pain Principle. This principle elaborately discussed the meaning of hurting people. I am amazed reading each part of the chapter and could not believe that I am also considered as hurting people. Well.. based from the example it had slapped me on the face and I’m considered one of the so called "Hurting people".

Hurting people tends to hurt other people. A person who is considered one of the hurting people can hurt other people frequently. It is because the cause of this hurt comes from the self-centered attitude of the person that tends to focus on what he/she is feeling not the other way around. The bad thing about this is that the person unconsciously hurt other people. He doesn’t know that he is hurting the person because he knows its right and its already a part of him.. Hurting other people can gain bad relationship towards other people. It becomes a wall that separates them with each other that tends to end in a not so good relationship full of dishonesty, betrayal and selfishness.

Hurting people can easily hurt by other people. Since these hurting people are self-centered, they tend to be more sensitive and more hurt by other people who don’t intend to hurt them also. It is because the focus of the relationship is not on the good side of gaining and winning with the person but on gaining and winning by himself, alone. That is why, the frequency of being hurt by other people is higher. Another bad thing about this is the defense mechanism being used by the hurting people. So once the hurting people is hurt, he also tends to hurt other people as his defense mechanism which results to a bad relationship.

Hurting people also hurt themselves. Although hurting people can hurt other people unconsciously and frequently, the true meaning of hurt still lies in them. Yes, they can hurt other people but the one who is deeply hurt is the person who had done it. They thought they are fulfilled. They thought they are happy. They thought they had done the right thing. But at the end of the day, they are all alone and realized that they are hurt even more than the person hurt by them.

When I have read this from John Maxwell, reality had came into my senses that I am considered one of the hurting people. I’m sad of realizing it but after a minute or two, I had realized that I’m strong enough to admit it and results me to getting this book and read it to improve myself one way or another. And with that, I’m happy.. so happy for the opportunity..

I had realized that I’m not the only person considered as one of the hurting people. There are still many of them. And through them, I had decided to be a good example of recovering from a hurting person to a better person who gains and wins good relationship with other people.

Before I end this shoutout, let me have the opportunity to thank all the people whom I have hurt but still understands and is willing to give me love and trust. I am not a perfect person but with all of you, giving me the chance to change and to be better, I thank you.

To those people whom I have hurt one way or another, I also want to say how sorry I am. I, too, doesn’t know that I had hurt you or I had closed my mind to. But still I had realized and I know that without all of you, I will not came to realize this and have the passion to change this.

For a better me.. and.. this is my life..   

When I was in college, I was very known at school. Not because of my position as a student council officer but I’m very famous because of me. I was believed to be a person who is mataray, unapproachable, and snobbish. Some people had known me by name but never got the chance to interact with me. They had given a lot of observant conclusions of what i am and who i am as a person by just mere looking at me..

And this people had challenged me.. I don’t know, but I have the passion of letting others know me as the true person that I am through a smile, a hello and a chat. Trying to prove that I am not the negative description of who is known to be that someone through a mere look as I walk.

But through the years, I had dealt with different types of persons with different personalities and different perspectives in life. But sometimes I tend to loose the idea of getting along.. There are certain reasons why.. Certain reasons that I consider valid until this very moment.. (and I will not discuss on that..)

For these past few years of my life, I tried dealing with other people as best as possible. Best as possible of getting acquainted with them with respect and understanding.. Yes.. I am a friendly person.. and I can easily trust one if that someone is nice to me.

But one thing I learned with trust.. Not all persons who are nice must be trusted. Its because that person can hook you on the back and can say and do things not nice to you. You thought all along that these persons are worth your time, worth your understanding and worth giving your friendship. But at the end of the day, you’ll get a slap on the face and you realized.. Hey! She’s nothing but made out of plastic. (You know what I mean hehehehe.. )

And somehow it got your nerves and senses that you have a better life without these plastics.. Well, you were once lived a life without them.. You can still use the old ones, the tested ones..

What I just don’t really understand is.. Why are they keep on stalking me? Why are they keep on showing up and saying "Hey! I’m here! Give attention please.." I just don’t understand that.. A beg for attention? hahahahaha.. a slap on the face again..

Well, anyways.. There are no other person who knows me except the people who had been with me for the past years of life, who had been with me through bad times and good times, who had believed and had trusted me. They are my family, my friends, my mentors, my loved one and everyone who had contributed in creating the better me..

Yes.. I am not perfect and I don’t intend to be perfect.. But one thing I can proudly claim I have, I HAVE A GOD.

Fear of my God is my shield to all unwanted feelings that I had towards the other person who betrayed and whom I had trusted but not worthy of it.

But the Lord God said "If you are betrayed, give generously to her your trust and do so without a grudging heart; then because of this the LORD your God will bless you in all your work and in everything you put your hand to." Deuteronomy 15:10

He also said "Do not judge, or you too will be judged." Matthew 7:1

I confess my unfairly judgment to other people whom I have thought of with mistakes of bad attitude. Lord, please give me the heart to give generously to other people eventhough I had been hurt by them and I had been judged by them unfairly. Please give me the wisdom and courage to put to waste the bad endeavor of judgment. Cleanse me, Lord. This I pray.. Thank you.. Amen.

All throughout my blogs, I’ve been discussing of what I am and what my life is, as of today. But I haven’t got the thought of what I am back then. I know, I had said for so many times how I got hurt and how I suffered.. and how these trials conquered my life and changed me..

But and but.. I never got to say sorry to those people whom I got hurt and betrayed.. All the while I thought that I am blamefree. That I can not be blamed on anything.. Because I have done the right thing and chosen the right things.. But with God’s grace, reality had come to me.. Reality of how blessed I am. Reality of what I had done. and reality of what I should be..

I don’t want to blame anybody. I don’t want to judge anybody.. And I don’t intend to hurt anybody.. Its just that..

I’m too selfish to notice. I am not perfect. I’ve been dealing life as best as I could.. But I never thought that I came to hurt people whom I never had learned I had hurt them the way I did until this very day. Its because I’m too selfish to notice. Too selfish that I was too blinded of what would be the feelings of others. I just concentrated on what I felt.. I just concentrated on blaming others of what I had felt.. I didn’t notice that there are other people who are hurting and who had been hurt for so many times because of my selfishness.. and with this, I want to say.. I’m very sorry..

I’m too arrogant to accept my mistakes. I thought that I had gained everything that I need: experiences, wisdom, and courage.. But still I thought that it would come from all the things that I learned that I became too bossy to know that there are things that I should be open to learn with and not to close my door of new comings and new happenings that I should learn about. I thought deciding things for myself and for others is my cup of tea.. but not.. its because, I’m too insensitive of others’ feelings of my decision and of how I want things to happen.. I became too bossy.. I became too judgmental.. I became too blind.. and because of this.. I want to say.. I’m sorry. I’m very sorry.

I’m so hurt.. It came to my senses how I got hurt and how I had suffered.. But still I realized that, this is a chosen alibi, to put myself into deciding wrong things and doing the mistakes I had made back then.. Yes, it is true.. That I’m hurt.. so hurt that I almost want to die.. But because of these hurt, I had done things that I don’t intend on doing.. I am not that person.. Its the person whom I used to conquer hurt.. and in return I got hurt even more.. and I got to hurt other people more.. and I’m so sorry.. I’m very sorry.

I felt betrayed. I thought I’m living a life as what I wished and hoped it should be.. And when I got hurt.. I felt betrayed.. I felt worthless… I felt nothing about myself.. My self esteem had crushed down from 10 to 0. I’m overwhelmed with this betrayal. But again, I misjudged.. I’m too selfish and too arrogant.. to think that I was betrayed.. wherein.. I never was.. Because I’m too blind to see. and because of this.. I’m very sorry.. I am so sorry..

I’m too judgmental.. It come to my senses that I had judged people that is so unfair and so insensitive.. I didn’t tried to listen on their explanation.. I became too judgmental.. I tend to blame.. and I tend to lose everything.. I had judged negatively.. I had judged selfishly.. Because of this.. I want to say I’m sorry.. I’m very sorry..

I focused on getting even. Since I got hurt so much, I thought of getting even with the other person. Getting even of being hurt as much hurt that I had felt and experienced. Everything in me, in my mind, my actions and everything.. IS REVENGE.. But this revenge had come back to me and had hurt me even more.. and results to not taking revenge as an even getaway of hurt.. but a more painful endeavor that I had dealt.. Not even noticed.. until this very moment.. and I want to say. I’m sorry.. I’m very sorry..

I thought I’m doing the right things. I thought that I had made the right decision for myself and for others. I thought that doing the things I did back then can conquer it all.. Can wash away all the hurt as I expect it to be.. But.. But.. But.. Its the other way around.. it still hunts me.. And.. I’m sorry.. I’m very sorry..

I’m too blind of the hurt of love.  You’ll never realize it until the day someone had come to you and let you aware that you are not the only person that is hurt.. Every person has its own reason.. has its own struggle.. of being hurt.. Every person got to hurt because of love.. and back then.. I’m too blind to see anything because of the pain it caused me to feel the hurt of love.. I’m so in love.. and I’m so hurt.. and because of this I’m too blind of anything.. and.. I’m very sorry.. I’m sorry..

To all the people whom I had hurt.. whom I had judged.. I want to say I’M VERY SORRY.. I don’t intend to hurt you.. I just don’t know how to deal it.. I don’t want to give more alibis..

It’s because I AM GUILTY..

But..

God has given me another chance to be with my original self. He said "Cast your burdens upon me and I will give you rest." With God’s grace and mercy, He had come unto me and cleanse me of all the mistakes I had done and blessed me with someone better.

Lord, I am unworthy of this gift.. But I accept it wholeheartedly because of your mercy and your undying love. I confess everything I had done and I admit I made mistakes.. And I’m so unworthy of what I have right now.. But still you continue to bless me.. you continue to love me.. I thank you Lord.. and I’ll be forever grateful for this. :’( I love you Lord and I thank you for this.. Amen..

And.. THIS IS FOR YOU.. i’m sorry.. Hope you can still forgive me..

Distinguishing what are the right things to do takes to consider the principle of a person of how he/she manages wrong things. It is in nature that a person may possess good attitude and better personality but it can ruin these good and better aspects unintentionally because of some reason that might occur during the circumstances of choosing between what to do and not what to do. Is a person must choose to do the right things? or must choose to do things right?

Doing what is right. A person has the freedom of choosing between what he/she thought is right with accordance to his/her principles, beliefs and personality. But doing what is right is an endeavor that decisions are made through a generic rule. A generic rule of right things. With a commandment from God, these generic rules are stated for every being to follow. There is no exception and there is no consideration of being ignorant to the rule. Its a commandment that must be followed. Its a commandment from God. A commandment of right and a commandment of truth.

A person can decide to pursue an action through these commandments. A person can consider the actions through correct guidance of these commandments. But somehow, the truth of right things hurt. It can hurt a person. It can hurt that person who decided it. Its a matter of considering between who gets hurt and the commandment reinstated to follow.

Doing things right. Hurt is an issue in doing right things.. Determining a feeling is a matter of consideration and a matter of sensitivity for other people.. Choosing on doing things right can solve the feeling of hurt. But.. and but.. doing things right can violate the rule of commandment from God. It can violate the generic rule.. And a violation means a sin..

If being sensitive to a person who got hurt from the truth of right can solve doing things right then a good decision was made? Nope, its not.. Sometimes, a solution given by the doing things right can instill only a remedy but not a temporary solution. In case of considering the things that must be done because of sensitiveness, doing the right things is better than doing things right. Why? Because providing a permanent solution is better than a remedy that instills improper way of solving the problem and at the same time instills incorrectness that ends to another problem which is more difficult endeavor to face.

A person must decide with the guidance of the commandment to further outdo the right things to the wrong things. A consistent decision of doing right things can prohibit and prevents doing things right but in the wrong and incorrect manner of doing things right, violates the word of God. And Remember:

Proverbs 1:3 "In acquiring a disciplined and prudent life, do what is right."

Daniel 4:27 "Renounce your sins by doing what is right, and your wickedness by being kind to the oppressed. It may be that then your prosperity will continue."

Continue living a life doing right things because God has a promise of continouos prosperity granted to the followers of the commandments.. And.. This is for you..

I’ve been living a life full of struggles and happiness. I had experienced life at its best and at its worst. Im proud to say that through the experiences that I had, I’ve became a stronger person whom I never thought I will be until I realized it now. I can never be too proud of who I am right now.. I can nver too ambitious of what I should be the next years of my life.. But all I can ever be is the same person whom I believe I became because of THESE FOLLOWING PERSONS:

My Mentor. No one can ever be a great person without the help of his mentors. I’ve been living a life full of abundant mentors at my side. Since birth, I was trained to be strong and to be independent in any way I can. I am and I will forever be grateful to my father.. MR. MARLON A. SICAT.. My father had trained me to be a person whom he knows I can be at my greatest potential. He had given me every lesson I can possibly had. HE IS AN UNDYING LEGEND. He had never failed to provide me everything that I need. And up to this very moment, every thing he had taught me still lingers in my mind and in my heart.. My favorite line that always comes from his mouth is “This world doesn’t have a place for mediocres.. Its a place for the best.. Be the best..” and I miss my mentor.. missed him so much.. :’)

My mother. MARLYN E. SICAT, a great mom.. A person that is so compassionate, so loving and so understanding. I had learned from her the meaning of true love. She is a reflection of what I want to be on the day that I’d be having my own family. I want to be a good wife and the best mother like her, to my husband and to my children. My mother.. the greatest mom in the whole world..
My siblings. MARY ANNE JIREH SICAT, my sister, whom I can talk with anything.. whom she lends her ears to listen to my problems, my aches, my happiness and to anything I want to talk about under the sun. I had learned from her the jolliness of a youthful life with God as the decision maker and guidance councilor of life. Jiye, as what we call her, is a reflection of perseverance, loyalty and truth of the word of God.. She had inspired me to be great and live life according to God’s will.. MARLON PAUL SICAT, my brother, whom I had learned to be patient with, to be understanding, to be in love with unconditionally. I admire his dedication, his strength, his faith.. and from him I learned those things.. Toto, my brother’s nickname, had always been the loving son to my parents. He knows how to give back the love he had and to give credit to what he had learned and what he knows he can do for them. He inspires me to be best in dealing all types of person and most specially how to deal temper. MY LITTLE ANGELS(Jarod, Malon, Malcolm). They are my inspiration of achievement.. They are my will.. They are the reason I want to achieve BIG.. Their success is my success.. They are my fulfillments..

My Love. EMMANUEL PELONIO, the person whom I want to spend the rest of my life with. He had taught me to be me in everything.. The good heart he has, made me inspire to be good and to be best for other people. He had taught me.. Generosity, happiness, patience, unselfishness, faith, trust, peace, kindness, humility, self-control, gratefulness and most of all love.. Through him, with him and by him, God showed me that I had a greater life ahead of me after all those sufferings I had in the past. HE IS A BLESSING.. A blessing I prayed for.. and now a granted prayer that im forever grateful for.. Thank you Lord. Lastly and most especially..

My creator. My heavenly father. My fortress. My redeemer. My Saviour. My God. All these things were never been mine if not granted and given by him. He had given me the greatest life, the greatest freedom and the greatest unconditional love I can ever had.. I had learned from Him to be myself according to His will, according to His plan and according to His word. God, I thank you for giving me an abundant life. Thank you for providing me everything that I need.. And I know.. I’d be forever grateful to that.. Thank you so much.. :’)

And these are the reason why.. I’M FOREVER GRATEFUL.. and.. this is my life..

Being happy is a frequent ideal wish of every person. It is a wish being aspired by a person who wants to encounter life to be easy and to be livelier at the same time. It may be wished because of wanting something such as achievements, fulfillment, love and anything that the person considers to be happy about. But…
HAPPINESS CAN’T HAPPEN WITH HAPPINESS ALONE. Happiness is an equivalent feeling of Sadness. Being happy doesn’t mean you’ll be happy all the way. Being happy doesn’t mean you’ll be okay all the way. Life is a balance of nature. Happiness doesn’t exists alone.. It exists with sadness. Sadness is also endured with happiness.. It means.. That if you want to feel happy you must’ve felt being sad and in order for you to know sadness, you may have felt happiness. Everything is in balance. Nothing lasts forever. You can never be happy and you can never be sad without feeling the opposite of it. If you are sad right now you’ll feel the happiness after it. and if you are happy right now you’ll feel the sadness after it. A balance of everything.. Through this balance, every person must prepare himself of accumulating both feelings. Happiness is a good feeling but not sadness. But sadness will be a good feeling if you’ll take it as a good feeling of being happy again the next day.

HAPPINESS DOESN’T COME FROM ANOTHER PERSON ALONE. Acquiring happiness can come from different sources. It may come from your family, from your friends, from your accomplishments and achievements, from your possessions, etc. It means that being happy must not be considered coming from one particular person only. God has given us so much to consider yourself happy with only a particular person. It would mean nothing to the other sources of happiness given to you. A person who is bluntly unaware of what she has, distinguish happiness as an accumulated feeling given by someone and blindly distinguishes the importance of other sources of happiness.
LISTEN. The agony of feeling happy is it tends you to feel sadness after it. So in order for you to feel happiness in the long run (but not forever - the balance of nature rule) is you must’ve know if that happiness can last the long run possible. Because if you don’t, the counterpart of happiness - sadness - is more painful to endure. How? Listen.. Just Listen.. A happy person, a person whom she thought its happiness, is blind of the things some other person can see. It is because these people can see clearly than the blinded one can see. For the reason that the clear eyes can turn into a blind one because of the all-so-thought-happiness.

BEING RIGHT IS HAPPINESS. Are you in the right track? Are you in the right side? Are you not doing wrong? Are you not hurting other people? Are you not taking control over somebody’s life? Are you not being selfish? Are you acknowledging the people who loves you truly? Are you creating a life that doesn’t intercept to anything wrong? If all the answers are no, then you are not being right. By being right you can accumulate the true happiness you ever dreamed of. Coz you have given a privelege to select between right and wrong.. Age is not a matter of consideration to know what’s right and wrong. Its a matter of attitude.. Its a matter of learning.. and its a matter of fearing God. Being right doesn’t come from happiness. Being right is not getting happiness but.. Being right is happiness.. A clear conscience and a right path of life is happiness.
A friend can never intercept of your meaning of true happiness. He/She can never know what makes you happy.. But.. A friend knows whats right when you are too blinded to see. A friend knows when to come when you are all alone because of you all-so-thought happiness.. And a friend is given to you not to judge you, not to interrupt you, not to accuse you, not to manipulate you, not to harm you.. They are all given to you to provide you grace, understanding, kindness, and most of all love. At the end of the day when you can’t hold on anymore, this friend knows to well when to come.

Being happy.. is not you thought it will be.. Having a friend.. is not you thought have for more accusations.. You have a better and beautiful life.. with your family, your friends, your mentors.. and.. this is for you..